Monday, December 31, 2012

Ring Out/Ring In



Last night I dreamed that someone snuck into my bedroom while I was sleeping and put braces on my teeth. For a while, in the dream, I thought I might be dreaming, but then my mom and Cory smiled and I realized they had also been struck by the phantom orthodontist.

My day was off to a disconcerting start.
And that was even before the SOS text from Sarah, "Kimye is preggers."





The last four days in Ohio were every little thing I'd been waiting for. They were all the bait I needed to reel me into a new year. Life really does have a good heart - I had proof.

I've been a little nostalgic and contemplative - haven't we all? There's plenty of room in life for playing the dealt hand, but I'm all for tying it up with a wide band of intentionality. I enjoy giving thought to what needs to change, what needs to keep right on staying the same.





It's been challenging to keep my emotional equilibrium in the midst of all that 2012 was. We told God He could shake us and He did. We moved and stretched, we've done it on a loop, over and over. Some days this skin feels too tight. It edges us out and spooks us into doubt on a bad day, paralysis on the worst.

But we know it's good. We know it's exactly right.

So we spill our guts and we find a little space. We never turn away a sliver of relief. We ride out the hard days on a wave of truth-telling, knowing for sure that tomorrow might make us feel a little silly or overly dramatic.



With forty-eight minutes left of the year, I feel it in my bones - a corner waits. I'll turn it.

The cliff looms and Times Square is jammed to the gills. People are hurting and Billy Joel has the mic and this right here is the very best of life, all mixed up, rarely making sense, breaking our hearts and tying them down with an anchor that never lets them float too far.

Happy New Year, Friends. Let's ring it in well, and let's keep on ringing. Let's ring with the good times and over the bad.

I'm more thankful than ever for you, your friendship, your remarkable propensity for coming back. If I could, I'd hand you a kazoo or a sparkler. We'd sway to Tony Bennett and I'd kiss your cheek at the stroke of midnight.

You're the real deal, you know. Thanks for being my friend for a whole 'nother year.

XOXO,
FPFG

 
ps - Be back next year with my "word"! You'll nevah, evah guess...

45 comments:

  1. The new year has already begun here in the future (Canada time). Thanks for being a friend.
    xo

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  2. Happy New Year, Shan! Love you.

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  3. Ring it! Crank that bell! Your words have meant so much, keep on keepin' on.

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  4. Happy New Year, Shannan! I look forward to seeing where the next year takes you.

    and ps- too bad there aren't actually phantom orthodontists... and dentists...

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  5. Happy New Year!! You bring the kazoo, I'll bring the La Fiesta ;)

    2013's gonna be great, friend!

    XOXO,
    Angie

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  6. Hope your new year is filled with gobs and gobs of wonderful moments.
    : )
    Love, B for Becky

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  7. Ok. I admit it. I'm a Flowerhead. I look forward to your words and pictures and can't wait to spend another year with you! Happy 2013!

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  8. love this from Leonard Cohen: "ring the bell that still can ring. There is no perfect offering. There is a crack in everything. That's how the light gets in." You are such a blessing to me. Looking forward to more in 2013------Lori

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  9. Happy New Year to you!! Reading your words has been one of my very favorite things of 2012. And I'm not even kidding :)

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  10. Happy New Year, my dear! SO glad I got to squeeze you in 2012, and hoping we can meet up again in 2013. Love, love, love you, my sister from another mister! :-D

    El

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  11. Just read Sara's comment. FLOWERHEADS UNITE! :-D

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  12. Happy New Year! I think I like the title "Flowerhead" that Sarah calls herself. I would be one of those, too.

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  13. Happy New Year FPFG! I agree with Sara, love your words and thanks for always sharing.

    Signed,

    Another Flowerhead

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  14. happy 2013, my dear. lor told me about silas's prayer (starring him and the cat) and it was the best thing i'd heard all week. what a life this is! :)

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  15. Happy New Year to you, too! I always enjoy your posts that include Ohio...home sweet home :)

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  16. Thank you for sharing your heart and letting me read your blog for the last year! :) God bless you and yours. xoxo

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  17. Happy New Year! Thanks for sharing your heart through your blog. It is my favorite read and most of the time why I even bother to check my email. I am grateful you are in my life though we've never met.
    Blessings and love in 2013!


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  18. happy new year, friend.
    your pictures feel so homey. :)
    can't wait to see what this new year full of Hope looks like for us all.
    im ready.
    xo

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  19. As I relatively new "flowerhead," I have so enjoyed reading your thoughts here. Thank you. Looking forward to what God has in store for 2013.

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  20. You are the "real deal" and that's why I keep coming back. I read every post, love them, and tuck away your wisdom every time. Love your sweet heart, Shannan!

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  21. I'll take that kazoo....

    I was just at The Lettered Cottage and had no idea you all met up at a Cracker Barrell..well WHY would I know that? The point? I want to meet you and all your kids, one kid..you and a kazoo..at a Cracker Barrell one day!

    Happy New Year!

    xo

    TT

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  22. Happy New Year to one who has the uncanny ability to share her world and rock mine at the same time. Add my name to the Flowerhead roll call :D

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  23. Oh Shannan, your blog is such a delight--and so are you! Your words and photos and quirks and honesty inspire and amuse and shake me up. Thank you.

    Happy New Year FPFG!

    And? I have Falling Together waiting on my nightstand and am working my way through Homeland (Netflix).

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  24. I know that Hogpath Rd. sign. We take that route home to Indiana sometimes. Happy New Year!

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  25. such a fun visit!
    love all your photos my friend. i haven't taken as many "life" photos lately with my real camera
    happy new year!

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  26. Happy New Year to you and your beautiful family! My "word" is BREAKTHROUGH (is that supposed to be two words?). Is it wrong to think...hope...it may be this year? My hope and prayer is that it is. I've been in this battle a long time. I know God will give me the strength to see this through...but maybe this year...Love your blog FPFG!

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  27. I feel so much grace and love here on your site! Happy New Year!

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  28. It's our pleasure to keep coming back.
    We all love you.
    RRR

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  29. and happy new year to you & yours.
    just like rachel sad, it's OUR pleasure. you're a light.
    sending much love,
    megan

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  30. Happy 2013 to you and your beautiful family FPFG! Love reading your thoughtful blog. All the best!! xoxo

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  31. so funny....we started watching homeland over the break. we can't stop. and i was going to text you and asked if you'd seen it? ha!! and there it is.
    we are HOOKED.
    also...did you see any movies?
    particularly one about 40?
    let's talk.
    happy new year.
    we WILL meet this year.
    :)

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  32. Happy New Year Shannan!!!! Thanks for keeping it real, for realz, all.of.the.time!! I so look forward to your quirky world, your sweet heart and crazy life!!! Can't wait to see what God does with you/in you/through you/for you in this new year!!!

    Can I claim the flowerhead title too??? Can't stand to miss a day of the flowerpatch!!!

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  33. Happy New Year! May all your dreams come true...

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  34. I love the "I believe in the sun...." sign :)
    Thanks for all the smiley.
    And, for the tears.
    Those are blessings, too.

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  35. I want to guess. I want to just randomly nail it. Is it boldly go? Oh wait, that's 2. Embrace? Engage? Salsa? Is it in english? Hmmm. Can't wait for the reveal.

    I love all the photos of your folks' house. I'll be right over. I LOVE the words painted on the walls. I think I have to borrow that idea...it made me think of the scriptures that says something about writing it on your doorposts. And I love that someone named that road "Hogpath"...I can just picture 2 guys standing there with a notepad and pencil saying, "what should we call this path the hogs made?" Ohio looks so homey. Cold, but homey.

    Thanks for making my 2012 much brighter. Here's to 2013 being the very best year ever. *clink!* :)

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  36. Loved having you here, we did have a great time ,didn't we?? Remember when you and Cor rented a series that you loved, and he got the series out of order??? He cracks me up,in a very good way.

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  37. You're a beautiful writer. I'm a quiet lurker, infrequent commenter, but wanted to pop in and say how much I appreciate you. ~ Jennifer

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  38. does your word have to do with braces? ohhhh, i hope so! shiny, full of food, wiry...oh, the list is endless.

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  39. You couldn't keep me away....not even with a stick.

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  40. I do not miss a post. Sometimes I am behind, but never do I miss. Thank you for being you, for living out God's will for your life and your family the very best way you know how, and for being willing to share that journey so transparently with all of us. It is wonderful that one can be inspired, encouraged, commiserate, and so much more when reading your blog. Cheers to a new year. My husband and I will be putting our house up for sale and allowing God to take us, move us, stretch us... Our sons will start kindergarten. My plan of becoming a casa/guardian ad litem will likely finally come to fruition. Hopefully the year will take me back to Africa, maybe even to a new country while there. God has lots of beginnings for this here family and surprise or two also I am quite sure. Love that His plan is always much more beautiful than mine. Also love that He gives us people to journey this beautiful, crazy, life with even if it is in the unique and not so small way of reading their blog!

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  41. Happy 2013 to you all, Shannan. I love you! That is all.

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